Monday, May 18, 2009

it's monday.

Monday's are always tough for me. I think it's partly because I never want to go to work, but it's also partly because the hubby doesn't work on Mondays, and it's hard to want to go anywhere when I know he's at home already. :) It's not that I don't like my job... I do. I just don't like the constraints of the "9 to 5-er" life, and the hour commute each morning and evening. I just don't think I was "built" for it, plus before I took this job I had quite a bit of freedom in my previous position to come and go as I please, run my pertinent errands during the day, and take time off as needed. I should have appreciated it more at the time.

But I guess I'm paying my dues now, so I need to suck it up.

The economy has really done a good job at knocking some of us down a peg. It was just about this time last summer that I lost my previous job. Not that I would have wanted to stay on much longer, but it would have been nice to have some warning. Or at least some time to plan. Instead, I went unemployed for 2 of the 3 months right before my wedding, and took the first job that popped up. I went from making nearly 6 figures, back down to making what I made at my first post-college job. It was definitely an ego check. But I am certainly thankful that I have a job at all.

I really shouldn't complain. My husband's business is doing VERY well considering what's going on with the economy, we just moved into a new house, I just bought a new car, we have a wonderful marriage, and we're thinking about babies. I just don't feel quite as useful anymore.

Normally, I would feel okay about things if I could be "Suzy Homemaker" on my off time, but even that hasn't worked out the way I would hope. By the time I get home from work around 7, there's just not much time to clean, do laundry, dishes, and dinner. So not only am I no longer bringing in the nice chunk of dough that I used to, but now I can hardly keep up with my own housework too. Don't get me wrong... my hubby helps out all the time. Plus he also does all the yard work, honey do's, and car maintenance. But he shouldn't have to... I'm plenty capable, and definitely organized, so there's no reason why I can't handle this. I just feel like I'm spinning my wheels.

It's just Monday. And I definitely feel it.


  1. Mondays are hard, aren't they?? It's only noon here and I'm already desperately wishing for 5 pm.

    Re: roles of husbands and wives-- the way I see it, you're a team. It doesn't matter who makes more money or who wants to/doesn't want to do something. If you see a problem, if you see a need, you fill it, because he would do the same. For instance, if I need some clean clothes, I put a load in of mine and his stuff. If he notices dog hair on the rug, he vacuums. And so on. We do have things that we split-- I cook, he washes dishes usually, but if I ask for help, he helps, and vice versa. We're very egalitarian, and I think that's the only way I could survive.

    Yeah, we're feeling lucky to be employed too. He doesn't like his job very much, but there's no where else to go at this point. I like mine but I don't make very much. I'm promised a large raise by the end of the year though, so I just have to wait. We're all waiting for something, aren't we?

  2. That is so true. It seems like we're always waiting for the next step. I'm like you at this point, my job is fine as far as the actual job goes, but the money thing hurts, haha. I too am promised a raise as I hit my year mark, so I'm holding out for that, too.

    I totally agree with you on the roles of husbands and wives... I guess I just have a hard time letting go of the things I feel like I'm "supposed" to do, you know? I don't even know where I get that from as my parents were very egalitarian as well. There just never seems to be enough hours in the day to do everything you want to do! LOL